terrible love life

i need you like we needed each other before

i miss you like we missed each other before

i love you like we loved each other before

if could, i want turn back the time from the first time we met

i would say no cuz i know it's gonna be a nightmare for me..

because i can't reach my love

it's pretty sad and i don't really have any spirit for now :(

i don't care who are you or who am i. i just care about my feeling and your feeling..

you made sweet memories for me.. i won't that moments and memories just gone..

i want you back for me.. don't you ever lie to your heart.. i never lied to my heart that i still love you lots <3

i think yes :D

well okay i think i like someone but i don't who is he even i know him i won't tell you all!! LOL
i think i know who is he but im not sure with my feeling awweee :D
i have to believe my heart rightttt ?? hehe don't you ever lie to your heart cuz your heart never lied to you LOL LOL :P *bullshit lol

but i want him to be mine. but ? errrmmm i dont know! what the hell is goin on with you ryaaa ??!!
well okay i want him ! :D
no one's knowin bout it except me n God. wth ..

well the answer is ...... yes i like him :D who is he ?? you'll know about it later MAYBE !!

oh yea ahh

I was playing with paint again todaaaaay! yeaaaaaaaaahh i love paint <3
And i got very bad score for math exam aaaaaaaaa :(
i was kinda shocked when i knew that i got ** ~~ i didn't know what to say, cuz i know that i was kinda lazy to go to school and study! =D
but you know, school is tired right? even it's fun sometimes ~~

I don't have much time to play, take a rest, and doin something fun! i'm tireeeeeeeeeeddddd..
now i go to bed at 10 pm it doesn't like usual, usual i go to bed at 11 pm or maybe 12 am..

well here it is ! my ugly picture when i was in school :D

i'm ugly i'm freak then LOVE me or HATE me ?

Today is ....

HAPPY BIRTHDAY NAIDAAAAAAA ...

I met her when i was in grade 5 in my new school. She's a kind, kinda nice lol and i think she's lucky! She has met with some famous peoples that she loved. It makes some people jealous with her right? haha! And i'm really thankful with her that she helped me to met The Click Five, yaa you know i love them so much =D. And i know sometimes everyone are annoying huh? and yea sometimes she annoyed but ok, i've forgetten about that lol. I wish she will get everything she want in her 15 years old, she will be so strong and never give up! AND ! DON'T FORGET TO GIVE ME A PRESENT ON NOVEMBER 29th !! it's for everyone okay? I repeat IT'S FOR EVERYONE ! DON'T FORGET TO GIVE ME A PRESENT ON NOVEMBER 29th ! I WILL BE 15 years old on NOV 29th ^^

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and okay, today was the first day that i got extra lessons before UN or National Exam ~~
I'll be back to home at 3:30 pm on Mon - Thurs and at 2:30 pm on Fri :D
Kinda fun but sooo tired, and i got headache when i was in school, it was really annoying, it broke my concentration :(

I had painting class today and my art's teacher didn't come to my school with any reason. But i dunno what the reason why he didn't come to my school. Me and my friends were painting and i was like a stupid girl! i dropped the paint and i touched the paint with my hands, and i made a sign with my hands full of paint to my book. And then i touched my friend's hand and yeahh we were playing with paint!! hahaha. Our class was so mess!! and my teacher was kinda mad and wanted us to cleaned it up but i didn't do it :D

I was looking sooo ugly ~~

Me with my hand full of colors xD

friend of mine

I was talking about my bf in France with my friend. She said that i was lucky, and i guess so that i'm lucky lol. He's kind nice and lovely but he hasn't given me any news, he's busy i guess.
I wish that i can call him tomorrow or dk lol.

My friend said that she wanted me to find a guy like him! hahaha. She's so cool! She told me about her crush and her crush's gf. She hates her crush's gf and she wants to kill that girl, okay i will help her! O.o
Ohya, my friend's name is Roxanne but i called her Roxie coz that's her nickname lol

That's her picture. She's from Philippines, we met on facebook. And she's cool, nice, awesome, and friendly! :D

The day lot of FUNS

I've written about my plan to go to outbound with my school. And i went to outbound with my school!! ohhh ma goooooosshhh it was veryyyy funnn!!!! I have to killed a fish and then i did a surgery with that fish haha. And then the fish was bloody and i loved that!
After that my teacher gave us alive frog! then i put that frog into a box with cotton and alcohol, after that i did a surgery too :D
It was kinda disgusting but veryy fun! you have to try it if you haven't tried to surgery an animal.
When i finnished i had to cleaned up the table and surgery tools.

I lost my PUSH POP CANDY :(
I WANT TO BUY IT ANYMOREEEEEEEEEEEEE !!!!!! I LOVE PUSH POP CANDY <33333

When i got back home i was very tired and kinda bad mood, my lil bro was very annoying!
Then i washed my face, went to bed and woke up at 4:20 pm awwweeeee..
It was kinda long time lol. I felt sooo tired but okay i had fun! yeaaaayy ^^

lovely day

Today was a lovely day. I woke up in the morning and chat with my crush. And i had fun in my school with all my friends. After school i went to work (i teach ballet hehe :D) and i was so happy! coz my students was enjoying the song and they danced, jumped, laughed, and played together.
They are just around 3,5 - 5 years old. They are so lovely and cuteeeeeee
I LOVE KIDS <3

Then, i went to supermarket with my maid and friend to bought something for tomorrow, i will go to outbound for moving class from my school. It'll be fun and happy maybe, coz i will play with animals, like fishes, frogs and many more. But i kinda scare with frog coz frogs are disgusting and they are jumping around, it'll be so hard to catch them! haha. My teacher said that the frogs were kinda big awweeee ~~

And we will cook and eat lunch at there wow i've never done it before lol. My teacher said that we have to catch the animals and then give the animals to our teacher and cook the animals for our lunch. I don't think that i will eat the lunch hehe.

I hope it's gonna be soooo fun!!

thursday morning

omgosshh it's really cold!! i thought it was cold coz of my air conditioner but NO the weather is very cold! my mum was opening the door and the windows and i said "woowwww jakarta is cold!!"
hahaha kinda silly heh?
and i'm chatting with my crush now hehe, but you know it's morning then i have to go to school
awwe bad :(

lazy day

I didn't go to school today even i had technology test today coz my mum told me it was raining so i went back to slept..
then i don't know why i felt pain in my tummy then i got up and went to front of my computer and went online. and yeah, i was chatting with my crush hihi :D he greet me! and i was happy for that..

and i played pet society on facebook hehe, my friend said it's a game for kids but i don't care bout that coz i love to play this game =D. then i went to slept again and woke up at 11 am coz i heard my grandma's voice. i felt hungry and i said to my mum "mommy im hungry" then she said "yea i'm cooking right now" and i was waiting for the food and you guess what?
she cooked for my little brother! wth.. i was kinda mad at her and i said "i told you im hungry and you said ok i'm cooking, but you cooked for my lil bro. euhh!"
but after that she cooked something for me and i said thanks..

when my first lil bro got back from school he said "you got homeworks from ms diyan, here is the paper" I GOT 3 HOMEWORKS !!! 1 page for math and 2 pages for science awwweee ~~
well i did math hw first but i wasn't sure if i was right or no, coz i kinda forgot bout the lesson (i have a bad memory anyway =D) and i haven't done my science hw, just few numbers left. I'll do it later hehe

<3 HEART

I have a new crush!! yeah yeah yeah, lol. And he told me that he liked me too aww <3
I really want him to be MINE MINE and MINE <3he's CUTE right ?????? =D what do you think about him? tell me tell me! lol ;p

That is my kitty, i called her Zyra but my dad called her Miaw and sometimes i called her Miaw. So she got lot names huh? lol. She doesn't like drink mineral water but she like to drink milk ~~
kinda funny lol. But i think i will give her to my cousin Jessica but i don't know coz Jessica hasn't given me any news anymore hehe :)

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OH MY GOOOOSH !

I'm really tireeeddd today. So sunny, some peoples kinda annoyed, I got 3 hw, and my problem hasn't cleared yet whoaaahh!!
Do u know what i wanna do? I JUST WANNA SCREAM OUT LOUUUUD !!!!

Someone has cheated on me and its really hurting me. I was crying sooo bad last night.
I've shared it with my parents and they were really helping and cheering me up.
I don't know what has been going on with that person. I've been asking my self what have i done?
And i didn't get any answer from my self :(

I wish this problem gonna clear as soon as possible.
Thanks to all.

Rya

first day of school

Gooosh there is so sunny in the outside kinda hurt my skins lol



School was okay i guess, i missed my friends and teachers. And we didn't get too much lessons today, cuz it was the first day of school. And I'm happy that I've shared my problems with my beloved friend, and she just like cheer me up, and told me that i have to forget it. Okay I'm trying to forget it and keep smiling =)



I love my true friends :) They made me smile and laugh with their joke haha. The point is so far I'm happy today cuz i met my friends!! lol



Rya

freaking damn weekend

It was a freaking damn weekend cuz someone has broken my heart.
I'm really tired with this shitty problem, cuz I've felt it like for many times. and you know it hurts right? emm yeah i'm so right! It is soo hurt!

i don't know what should i do now. many peoples gave me an advice.
and i really appreciate that, thanks to my friends :)

I'm sick right now, cuz kinda stress lol. I got high fever and low blood pressure, cuz of that i fell down when i woke up. Do u know how it feels heh? i guess so many peoples knew it ;D

and yeah, tomorrow i will start my school, emm actually this morning haha
i'm soooo lazyyy! i haven't done my hw. i don't remember which page with english hw and math hw? i'm lazy to do it ;D
i don't know what will my teacher do to me and i don't really care about that :D

It's kinda late for me to go to sleep but i'm not sleepy yet. Well i'm afraid that my dad will wake up and he will look at the clock and say "do u know how late is it? turn off the computer and goo sleep!" haha

Well, i'm going to bed right now i guess. But i'm little hungry cuz i haven't eaten from this afternoon hehe, but i'm not diet!

i'll write again tomorrow. so bye for now

Rya